Afterthoughts

Perhaps once
I enjoyed the confusion
not fulling knowing
misunderstanding
pieces of puzzles

Perhaps once
it gave me a rush
gave me a thrill
made me feel alive
on my tip toes

perhaps, perhaps

I was a fool then.

Now
I find peace in clarity
in honesty
in sincerity

No encryptions
I will not look for
hidden messages
I will not take
SMALL gestures
disguised as something
innocent

I demand
at the very least
decency
respect
and the forth-righteousness
to say what it is
you truly want to say
openly
with no expectations.

Stop hiding.