Stormy Nights

Fighting every emotional bone in my body,
I move
slowly initiating
my mind slowly swaying like a boat on your seas

out-
Put your hand on my chest.
Feel thunder inside me.
I am drowning in the storm.

and in-
The currents swirl like blue infinity around me.
I hold my breath. Calm stillness in the center 

to observe the capability of your insistence on destruction,
never apologizing

never taking accountability,

wrecking, breaking, blaming...

If I hold on, you'll take me down

to hit the hard, hard ground,

where I lay heavy with your tides flowing over me.

If I let go now, I might drift away, 

find some shelter in another lover

with two feet firmly planted, ready to make roots.

My hand cracks

as fingers unfurl, the only sutures left for hope of our salvation, 

I see through the splinters 

a yellow warmth, a singing light. 

As it rises over the horizon, breaking clouds, I know

there comes an end to eternal storm and night.