Hiccups

I want to let you go
I want you to know
That despite being summer, I am still freezing.
The songs still sting
And the guitar still rings
out notes that remind me of your being.

In these momentary lapses where I regress
I am put into the places
Where once you filled in these spaces
Leaving nothing
blank.

But now it's long over
and we've grown a little older
but there are some things that my heart won't let
shrink.

I want to let it go.
I want to love and grow.
But I still have this little aching.
Keeping me grounded
Still so confounded

It was a tragedy in the making.